Still waiting...

Well, the 27th has come and gone and still no baby boy... We are all anxiously awaiting his arrival and it appears he is in no hurry at all. Alissa has another appt. tomorrow, hopefully there will be some news then...

In the meantime, here are a few pictures of his nursery, all ready and waiting for him.


Love the bedding and it is soooo soft!!


I am sure he will be rocked many hours in this chair!

I'm ready, he isn't

Ok Baby Boy Poynor, Nonnie is in Boston, at your house, with your Mommy and Daddy, you can come out now and play with me!!

Still waiting...

Well, after getting very excited Wednesday, we are not so excited today. Alissa saw her doc yesterday and the good news is the pre-eclampsia is much better, bad news is, it doesn't look like a little one this weekend. So, we wait....

Rheumy appt.

Saw my Rheumatologist today. He seems to think the Plaquenil is helping. Took some x-rays of my hips and spine. Conclusion...Osteoarthritis in both... Whoo-hoo...At least that explains all the pain I have been having for the past several years. Gave me two more prescriptions, one for the arthritis and one to counteract the side effects of the arthritis pill...hardly seems worth it...Not sure I will take it, I think sometimes the cure is worse than the ailment. But we will see.

I think I will be switching over to the Doc here in Ft. Smith. It is just too far to go to Tulsa for these appts. Plus, I don't really care for the Tulsa doc. It just makes more sense to see the doc here in case I need to be in the hospital for any reason. So I have an appt with him for Sept. 1st. Hope I like him...

It's almost time...

From the sound of things, it isn't going to be long now before little boy Poynor makes his appearance!! Mommy is on bedrest (pre-eclampsia) and there is for sure some activity going on. I don't think I will make it to my scheduled flight on Monday...I knew I should have flown out on Tuesday...Oh well...So excited!!!

I just can't believe the time is almost here. Can't wait to post the wonderful news!

He's back, the internet's back and I'm back!

Well, after almost a week without internet, Ed finally returned home from his 3 week Alaska adventure and fixed the problem for me. Not sure what I am more excited about, his return or the internet's... I'm kidding girls, you know I am glad your Daddy is home...although, not so happy about the current mess in my living room from all of his "stuff".



Haven't had the greatest week, but hoping to feel better soon. I have only been taking the meds for about 3 weeks, supposedly it takes 4-12 weeks to kick in and start making you feel better. If they are going to that is. I see the Rheumy doc again on the 23rd for more tests. Hoping for good news.

And then on the 27th (if not before), I leave for Boston and the birth of a very special little boy!! Can't wait to see you little DJ!! And of course your Mommy and Daddy too!!

And if I had any doubts that anyone was reading this blog, guess I don't anymore...no response at all to my previous post. Oh well, I am really just writing for me and my girls anyway and they already knew...

It's Lupus...

These are the words I heard. Over the last year and a half I have heard rosacea, eczema, lets do a biopsy, possible lupus, appears to be lupus, let's draw some blood, let's draw some more blood, some tests are positive for lupus, but not conclusive, you need to see a Rheumatologist, cutaneous lupus, let's draw some more blood...

And today, it was Systemic Lupus..

I couldn't breathe, couldn't think to ask questions, just said thank you and hung up.

Then I think I had my first panic attack.

There may be more...

But it explains so much of the way I have been feeling for almost 2 years now. While I am glad to have an answer, it is really not the answer I wanted to hear. But really, does anyone want to hear this kind of thing?

When I had calmed down, I wrote down some questions, called the Dr. back and felt much better after I had some answers. Here are a few of them.

There is no cure, but with treatment I should be able to live with it.

I won't be sunbathing any time soon. I have always known the sun was bad for me, but now it is really bad for me.

I am going to have to adapt to taking medication, every day and on time. Me, who can't even remember to take a vitamin every day will now have to be responsible and take my meds.

I will be seeing Doctors on a much more regular schedule. I made it 50 years without having to see them very often at all, guess I will be paying for that now.

I have much more to learn about this disease, but plan to do it one day at a time. That's pretty much all I can do other than pray. And I plan to do that quite a bit as well. If you are reading this, I hope you will pray with me and for me. Not ashamed to ask. You can never have too many prayers or people praying for you.

Life after 50 is taking me down a road I would rather not travel, but down it I must go....